“Do you know," Peter asked, "why swallows build in the eaves of houses? It is to listen to the stories.” ~ J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan


but then again, some things stay the same

remember the speech about baseball in field of dreams?  the one where james earl jones' character is explaining about the constancy of baseball?

"The one constant through all the years, Ray, has been baseball.
America has rolled by like an army of steamrollers.
It's been erased like a blackboard, rebuilt, and erased again.
But baseball has marked the time.
This field, this game, is part of our past, Ray.
It reminds us of all that once was good, and that could be again . . ."

baseball changes every year - sometimes the yankees don't win - but the game is mostly the same, the important parts have stayed the same, and we are reminded of the times that were while we are in the middle of the now, and we bless those hours spent under the sun or in front of the television under air conditioning beating away the summer heat.  in the bad times the constants are our comforts, in the good times they are old friends and we are just hanging out, spending some time. 

sometimes the constant is a movie we watch and rewatch, a book whose pages we flip through once again.  we are there in the past and we are here in the present and it holds us close and still for the time we need.  lord of the rings, all 3 parts back to back, will do that for me.  anne of green gables, all the books right in a row.  and this year, a new constant.  sex and the city.

after my mother died, i would go by her house on the weekends to pack or clean a little, to keep skye the cat company, and one weekend i found a sex and the city marathon on tv.  all day.  all the way up to the last best episode where she wears that fabulous blue dress and big saves the day, and it was the perfect background noise.  i knew all the lines already, all the clothes, all the shoes, no surprises in store, and i could sit down and watch an episode when i needed a break.  by the time that last episode came on, i was done, exhausted, and i sprawled on my mother's couch and i was in paris with carrie and brooklyn with miranda and happy happy to be in both places.

the next weekend they did it again.  another marathon.  another day spent with no surprises and lots of cosmopolitans and wondering if people in new york could really get away with dressing like that.  it was wonderful and i blessed the powers that be.

yesterday i was 4 days into 4 days off and they did it again.  so i spent the day doing nothing but laundry and watching tv and it was the very best day off of all.  this time at my house with skye the cat on my couch, this time the memories of the show including memories of mother's house.  like baseball, changed but mostly the same.  the important parts were still there - carrie still found her necklace and she still wore that dress.  it was fabulous.



  1. so pleased to see you are writing. you are keeping these journals on your blog of your feelings, your observance, your understanding and lack of same. and so happy to have these brief glimpses into your life. for your life, while so very unique, is still very much, like so many of us, grieving and trying in whatever ways possible, to get beyond the grieving.
    may you see the angels in all their precious, as they dance about you.

  2. i believe i do. and they are wearing the most fabulous blue dresses!


  3. Mmmmm, YES!! I love Sex in the City, too! It is just the perfect mind-happy-candy, isn't it? The throwing of the first pair of Manolo Blahniks, isn't that the rite of spring? `;-)
    Enjoy, sweetie!!

  4. This made me smile for a bunch of reasons, a) this past weekend i was home alone and reading, and put Field of Dreams on in the background but then got so engrossed that I watched it all the way through for the tenth time, b) lord of the rings was my second choice that night c) on saturday and sunday, when i wasn't outside making jewelry, i was in front of the tv watching sex and the city!
    And also because I am glad that you had a good weekend, in a good place.

  5. Can you believe, I have never seen a single episode? I think I might be the last woman on earth who hasn't watched this show! This is what happens when you work in the evenings...you miss out. I've always been mildly curious. Maybe I should go rent the series this summer, before the last standing video store in my area goes out of business!

  6. A friend and I were just talking about this yesterday. For her it is John Wayne movies, for me it is old Cary Grant movies (or really, any old movies).

    I've never seen LOTR or Sex in the City. Eeep. I know, I live under a rock, right?

    So glad you found comfort in what's constant. Goodness knows we can all use some constant things in our lives. ♥

  7. I've never watched the show. Never really wanted to. Till now. You make me want to see the blue dress.


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