i never do. i have the stuff - i have more than i could possibly need, and i have ideas - tons of them, too - but i don't have time. i don't have a husband and i don't have kids and i don't cook if it requires more than a couple of ingredients, and i'm not a great housekeeper, but i still don't have time. i am never caught up and i don't know how you women who get caught up do it, and really, i don't want to know, because it makes no nevermind because what works for y'all ain't gonna work for me and i am done with pretending.
so i bought christmas cards today. well, actually, the ever-wonderful michael bought them for me; i tossed them up on the counter with all the stuff he was buying and lickety split, just like that, they were mine, and i feel gosh darn good about it. i may go buy another box just in case. i may buy a christmas present while i'm at it, even though i've been pretending to myself that i will make those also. (my mother informed me she didn't want anything handmade and she especially didn't want anything with any damn buttons glued to it or sewn on; she'd had enough handmade stuff when she was a child and poor and walked miles and miles to school - which, i have to admit, is true - and she wanted store bought stuff.)
i continue to get lighter. i remember last year, or maybe a couple of years ago, writing about being tied down to earth and not quite being able to get away, about being tethered, at least i think that's what i wrote, if not i should have, and here i am finally doing it. it was a slow process getting to this point, but now that i am here, i am dropping things with wild abandon. perhaps not wild abandon - i can feel y'all rolling your eyes - but i am dropping things and not looking back, at least not much, and for sure with no regrets, with only smiles and a hand over my mouth to contain my laughter.
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now you have to SEND them!! that is the hardest part..i get it ..the whole thing...in fact I should just close my shop all together
ReplyDeleteand float away
exactly :)
ReplyDeleteBwah! You made me laugh out loud @ "nothing handmade & especially with buttons on it". It is so funny & poignant how we are often (but not always)formed by the past & our reactions to it.
ReplyDeleteWell, honestly, more by our reactions to it...
And yay & yahoo for dropping things & not looking back!!
I wonder if there is something in the stars right now? I find myself doing a lot of that right now, also, & without really "trying to".
It's gonna be a NEW year soon! :-)
It's funny because each year I plan on making my own christmas cards too . . . haven't made them yet and I've just ended up buying some cards for this year!
ReplyDeleteI thought I heard someone giggling...
ReplyDeleteI bought my cards back in January for the first time ever, thereby sealing the pact with myself that there would be no making them, and I kept my pact last year to not make any gifts. except for jewelry, of course, most women on my list get some of that :)
Good for you for the dropping of things and the not looking back.
i did. i really did hear you laugh as you wrote this post. the smile on your face couldn't contain the little squeaks i heard.....
ReplyDeletei bought cards. and then found some photos from last years storm that i'd forgotten about and now i'm making some cards for the "special people" in my life.
i think you're special !
I've been making Christmas cards *and* ornaments for the past 5 years, and it has been exhausting. This year, I made the decision to make only ornaments and buy the darn cards. We'll have to see how it goes...
ReplyDeleteI try to make cards each year and this year is no different. I have been saving the brown sleeves they put on my chai at Starbucks and making cards out of the sleeves. I need a few more, so I must also buy another chai when I go to pick up that magazine tomorrow.
ReplyDeleteYeah, I don't have the energy either.
ReplyDeleteI make gingerbread men for my students...this takes a long time...and last year I made these wonderful chocolate dipped sugar coated orange peels for my friends and some homemade beaded tree icicles...
I'm still exhausted from last year. I will be buying my cards too.
i understand this so well, but one thing i can't let go of is the hand made cards - grew up this way. however i send fewer and fewer each year. i've been making my own cards since i was a child because my mom did. when i was young i made linoleum cut designs, hand stamp each and every one, signed each and every one with more than my name and sent over 50 each year - now I barely get 10 out.
ReplyDeletei'm with you, i don't know how some these women do it.