i hate it, you understand;
i stand here with no words,
i stand here wanting to do nothing but sit down,
dream dreams that come true,
but i would have to wake up to see if they do,
and therein lies the problem.
if the dreams are that good, i want to stay sleeping.
there's a zen saying about that,
about that need to wake up,
but i don't remember it,
it's just sending off sparks in my brain;
i remember the feel of it when first i read it,
remember the truth of it,
but here i am on the other side of that truth,
and i am not at all sure
that just because it's a zen saying it is right.