“Do you know," Peter asked, "why swallows build in the eaves of houses? It is to listen to the stories.” ~ J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan

6.05.2009

3 Quiet Trees: Pear Trees/Surprise Snowstorm

mixed media w/acrylic on canvas: 24"x24"

I am almost there.

I am sitting here in the middle of paintings and almost complete paintings, the weather outside is wonderful, I have another 4 day weekend, Maggie is sleeping in her personal spot of sunshine outside the front door, the tv is on but the sound is off, and I am waiting for gel to dry on a rather large canvas. It will be a while. I could wait until everything is well & truly complete to ponder this turn of events, and I no doubt will ponder away when it is over, but how do I feel right now, in the midst of it, past the middle, almost done, almost ready? Past the angst, past the worrying, past the will they like me, will they like my stuff? I feel ready. I feel okay, let's do it. I have been in contact with a woman about a spot in a street art market in November (actually the weekend of my birthday), a juried show in a town about an hour from here, and although they usually want only those who are experienced with this street fair kind of event, she is hopeful I will participate, which is flattering & scary at the same time. It costs money, it requires a tax number, and it makes me think about all this art stuff more seriously. It's why I called myself an artist in yesterday's post. Am I or am I not? Do I want this or do I not? Am I up to 2 days of talking about my art with strangers? Yes to all, I think, but I will make no decision until I see how this first small show is over, until I see the response.

I need a little peace, a bit of a break, and this summer was to be spent looking for a place to move - a place with studio space. But I am unwilling to take Maggie away from her home right here, so here I will stay while she is still with me. Too many things to think about, too many decisions, too many thises & thats.

The above painting
is one of the largest I've done for this Thursday's show.
It was the painting with the too-green trees.
I knew they wouldn't stay green.
I needed them to be peaceful.
Quiet.
And I remembered the way the pear trees
looked last year in a late snowstorm.
I may call them The Quiet Trees.
It looks like a place for whispers,
and there is nothing to stop the wind.
No place to hide.
Hmmm . . . I hadn't thought of that.
A place of honesty.

A place to show your soul.
i like that - the soul trees

13 comments:

  1. Yes, you ARE an artist! And I know you are terrified but you Will succeed and it's the fear interfering, tell it to scam. (I know, it's hard) This will be the best thing, enjoy it and don't try to overthink it. Love you...

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  2. dahling, whether you call yourself it or not, you ARE an artist. just go for it!!!

    xoxox,
    /j

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  3. texture in the painting and words ...both quiet . both real

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  4. I love this one too!!! :) Yes they need to be quiet.

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  5. Hi You!!!
    Love the peacefulness about the trees....a place to show your soul...mmmm...beautiful...

    read this today....maybe it means something to you too..

    'Self-worth comes from accepting the Self that has been created. Through the cumulative conditioning and beliefs of hundreds, even thousands of years, we have experienced so many negative and unhelpful beliefs and self-concepts that we have almost forgotten who we really are. Our true self is the spirit, or the unconditioned self within us, untouched and unchanged by anything of this world. We can change our prayer from 'Help me be different and change myself' to 'Help me accept and experience myself as you created me'. In truth, there isn't, and never has been, anything wrong with us.'

    and...

    'The greatest achievement was at first and, for a time, a dream. The oak sleeps in the acorn; the bird waits in the egg; and in the highest vision of the soul a waking angel stirs. Dreams are the seedlings of reality.'

    Don't know why I'm drawn to this to send this to you...mmmm.....maybe I need your trees...heehee....

    You are already everything you want to be xx

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  6. you are quite talented!!! wow!

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  7. This Thursday. This Thursday. I'll be thinking of you.

    It's going to be fantastic!

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  8. I think of you as an artist and a lovely woman with so very much to share. I can see the quiet trees in this piece. They have charm too.

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  9. Oooooooooooooooooohhhhhhh.
    This is one of my favourite paintings so far! I LOVE THIS!

    Debi, you are such an authentic artist. Everything you create has emotional depth and meaning. I love how these opportunities are coming your way (like little shoulder nudges) to show you that you have a place here in this world to share your gifts. May you keep growing out of your fears...there is so much space under the wide open sky to bloom!

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  10. you definitely are an artist!

    if I saw this at an art fair, I would stop and stare with a happy sigh. it would be perfect in a bedroom .. very calming and serene.

    why have I never seen square canvas' at the craft store I wonder? they look like they'd be more fun to paint than rectangles ..

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  11. Beautiful and peaceful. I also thought that the name of it was "I Am Almost There".
    It seemed befitting!

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  12. I can literally hear the silence, this one is my favourite so far (though i think they all are). I hope you will take lots of photos of the show so we can share the moment. Whatever the outcome you are an artist and a damn good one! I wish you the best.
    Love,
    Suvarna

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  13. PeriWinkle- Love and totally agree with what you wrote. I am in a "self" exploration phase of my life right now and this is something that I am going to read over and over again. thank you...

    P.S. Isn't Debi amazing?

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