“Do you know," Peter asked, "why swallows build in the eaves of houses? It is to listen to the stories.” ~ J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan

4.14.2009

I Still Have 2 Ears

Ooooohhhhh, another door.

I just want to get behind it, to see what's there.

I'm still in art mode, still putting backgrounds on canvases, putting backgrounds on metal, altering signs, gluing paper, slopping on gel, more paper, gesso, paper again, and it is still just backgrounds. I know what it's all about, what all these pieces will talk about in their own silent way - Storms & Stillness will be the name of this show - but it is slow going. Storms & stillness have been my life for the last little while - kind of like baseball; lots of waiting around for something to happen and then a whole bunch of stuff really fast. I know I must be boring you all to tears - all these gray images, all these just not very pretty pictures, all this constant introspection & worrying & agonizing & overthinking, and to be honest, I am quite boring myself to tears, so I understand. Any day now I expect to reach the lopping-off-an-ear stage. I come here to this blog every day & think I will change the background, change the banner, change the colors, brighten & lighten things up - I visit other blogs that are just bursting with cheer & color & thank goodness they are out there, but I just get jealous & feel as gray as my images, as shadowy, as dreamy, when I want to be anything but all those things, when I want to just be the sparkles of sunshine on a lake. But for now, I am where I am, here in this artist's frame of mind, wherever it came from - was I born this way? - and I will be here for a while. I am taking so few photographs, concentrating on these canvases (should that be canvi?) strewn all over my house, staring me in the face, sending out invisible energy, luring me into their world.

So please bear with me.
I will be back to finding magic after a bit.
Right now the magic is lurking nearby,
hiding in paint & atop canvases,
and soon I will see it.
Soon.
You will be the first to know.
promise

9 comments:

  1. i love the silver stillness of both your blog and your mood.

    exactly like the sky before the rains come.

    alive with possibility.

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  2. i honestly like it the way it is.
    btw, i'm glad you still have your ears. : )
    can't wait to see your creations.

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  3. Hello, this is Margo. I have a question about your post about the "Thief", The company that does not Care, even though they say they do in their name.
    Please email me, I think I have a friend who is considering hiring a company that has "caring" in their name and I want to see if it's the same company. If it is I want to get her in touch with your so you can tell her your story.
    Please email me
    Margo

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  4. You're blog is anything but boring! The colors are not boring, depressing, etc. It is very soothing to me and I think you should leave it well enough alone missy! Love you!

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  5. The magic is never too far! In the meantime, have fun with all that background creating!

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  6. Your gray images are alluring and peaceful...no apology necessary.

    So glad you stopped by and that I found your "place". Inspiring.

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  7. Hele - Possiblity seems to be my word lately. Perhaps I should have chosen that instead of unfurl as my word of the year. :)

    SYW - Yes, both still here! LOL! Thank you for liking it as is. I am too lazy/busy to change it anyway! LOL again!

    Christy - Thank you! Thank you for still being here. I owe you a very, very long email, but don't worry - when I send it, I will keep it short! :)

    Paula - I appreciate that! I am exhausted with painting at the moment - there are 22 or 23 partially completed pieces of all sizes (backgrounds still being worked on)scattered all over my house & the magic feels very far away. At least I am learning to agonize less! :)

    Melody - I'm glad also that you stopped by. And thank you for the kind words - they sound very good on this Sunday afternoon.

    :) Debi

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  8. aaah

    its the possibility of the unfurling

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  9. Have I told you yet???

    How much I love your blog?

    It is so wonderfully perfect, exactly as it is. Soothing, comforting, entertaining, thought-provoking, beautiful...I could go on and on.

    (the *lopping-off-an-ear stage*...HIGHLY entertaining..you made me laugh out loud!)
    (but glad you still have your two ears)

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