“Do you know," Peter asked, "why swallows build in the eaves of houses? It is to listen to the stories.” ~ J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan

8.13.2008

Shelter for the soul


This is about the mistakes I make, the exhaustion I feel, the red paint that is just too much red, the times it just doesn't work. This is also about the small pieces of just right that keep me hanging in there. So much of this little painting just isn't working, but too much of it is, so I can't let it go. I don't yet feel the need to gesso over this little bird who's found a bit of peace beneath a sheltering leaf. There are so many details that are exactly the way I want them to be. It's just that sky. That sky has been black, it's been white, it's been teal and gray, and this red red red. It's a sky of many moods, that sky is. I've been looking at it for weeks, and then hiding it away, and then looking at it some more, and then hiding it again. I know the mood it was in when it began, but it keeps changing, and it hasn't settled yet. That sky is not my friend right now. Which is, in fact, what it started out as - not my friend. An angry, scary sky. I just didn't expect it to take that mood so personally - to toss it back at me & just laugh at my inability to figure it out. So this is about pushing a painting where it doesn't want to go. The painting pushes back. We are at an impasse. Who will win? I think we both will. When this painting finally has its way, when it wins, I think I will also.

16 comments:

  1. I think it is beautiful, the sky, the fragility of the shape above the bird and the stark whiteness of the bird.

    It speaks to something in me that lives in a reality where fragility, reality and hope are trying to find each other.

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  2. Isn't it wonderfully fascinating how a piece that you are working on can reflect so accurately how you are feeling inside? I guess that is what creating is all about. Expression.
    I love your processes Debi...I love how you are always in process, always looking from within.
    I find a great deal of solace in this painting. These fragile birds seeking refuge from an angry sky. I am going through my own processes right now and find myself constantly seeking things that bring me comfort.
    Thank you for sharing this beautiful piece.

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  3. i just can't stay away from your house/home/blog/paintings/you. like jaimie it is your process that captures so much of my heart. that push/pull/drag/resist/surrender process that seems to be the makings of your art.
    you know what? i love you debi :)
    XO

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  4. Michelle - Thank you! It helps to know it may be okay the way it is, although I DO think that sky may change again.

    Hele - Thank you too! I admit to being surprised that people like this the way it is, but that's part of the reason I posted it. I badly needed input. :)

    Jaime - Oh, my processes! I could, every once in a while, use a break from these processes! LOL!
    I'm so glad you like this. Good luck with your own process situation - it can be exhausting, but in the end, I believe, as you, that we end up comforted.

    And Miss Robin Bird - I don't know what to say. :) I just read YOUR post about the art-making process, the surrendering to that which is YOU, and it made so much sense, but it's so HARD! And at the same time, the easiest thing in the world. I love your phrase push/pull/drag/resist/surrender. I may have to type that out & put it in my "studio space".

    And PS - I love you too!

    :) Debi

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  5. I love it just the way it is...

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  6. Christy - Thank you, thank you, thank you. It means a lot.

    :) Debi

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  7. very cool description of the creative process. i like that the painting seems to have a say as well..and a mind of its own.

    i personally love the red sky. it says "drama" in the face of calm.

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  8. Julie - We must've been reading each other's blogs at the same time. How funny - I just this very moment got back from leaving a comment for you.

    I'm getting so many positive feelings about this sky I may have to rethink it. Thank you.

    And the paintings DO have minds of their own. I also just posted a comment on Robin Bird's blog about this very subject.

    Today is full of serendipity.

    :) Debi

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  9. It is so interesting to read your feelings and thoughts about this little piece, I would have never guessed. I looked at it and a sound escaped my throat of something like pleasure, it touched me!

    Thank you for your comment of congrats!

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  10. I'm in love!!! I love these colors together :) I like it this way 100%because the bird does feel sheltered from the greatness of the red sky. The colors make sense with how you feel and the title of the piece - beautiful, beautiful work!

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  11. Wonderful stuff, my dear! I've just been browsing through your latest posts. Great work.
    Nancy

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  12. Tammie Lee, Valaine & Mam - Thank you all. I admit to being quite an agonizer & over-thinker about things, and I'm beginning to understand that perhaps that's what I'm doing with this little bird. Poor thing! I appreciate more than you know your input on this & thank you again for the kind, kind thoughts.

    :) Debi

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  13. I see a heart bleeding and water the space that holds it. The bird, the tree, all life. Do you ever make prints and sell them? I feel safe with this.

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  14. How much would you ask for this, just out of curiousity?

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  15. Christy - I've emailed you.

    Mermaid - I haven't done this, but I'm very interested in doing so. I'll check out details about it & let you know. Thanks so much for asking & for the wonderful comments.

    :) Debi

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